I must say, the past couple of years have been a remodeling job of Sarah.
I got to face things I had no idea were there. After taking a good look at them, it was time to let them go and embrace what is.
Think about this for a moment. As a reforming perfectionist, I had this picture that was perfect in my minds eye and that is how things should be.
As I started painting the so called perfect picture, people were not fitting in the paint and style I was portraying them to be. You see, my beautiful picture didnt involve other peoples artistic talents, just mine; them not fitting in or things not happening how they should happenWhat I didnt realize is this; when you get married and have children, your canvas becomes the communitys canvas. The other artists might bring chalk, watercolor, oil paint, finger paint, crayon, pencil, charcoal, whatever they color life with, however they see beautiful and whenever is time for them to show upand there I stoodtrying to make it look perfect from my point of view.
That would involve taking agency away from people. So, I could behappy with how it looked. Here is the tricky partGod doesnt take agency away, how can I? Yesterday I heard a beautiful quote; Next to the bestowal of life itself, the right to direct that life is Gods greatest gift to man. David Mckay.
So, my canvas now is full of different textures, styles and materialsand it is beautiful! It doesnt have to look a certain way in my eyes. Everyone that has a place in my heart has a piece of my canvas. And because we are all unique and we all have a different twist on life, there will be no picture like it, there will be colors sitting next to each other that shouldnt be together in an artistic world. They complement each other on my canvas.
My Community Canvas has smiles, tears, fears, faith, courage, dreams, nightmares, sadness, joy, adventure, boredom, freedom, depression, hope, despair, victories, defeats, losses, gain, you name itthe colors of it express it all.
Ive learned to enjoy my community canvas. Ive learned to love it!
You see, God Himself has the masterpiece and I add my little canvas to His work of art, called life. His canvas is much more diverse than mineand He makes it beautiful, He makes it work and His plan fits everyone, wherever they are coming from, however they are getting there and everyone is touched by His love and mercy.
How does your canvas look? Are you appreciating the beauty in it? Are you allowing other artists to take their turn? Have you learned to be happy with what is? Have you let go of what should, could, wouldve been?
The bigger the community, the more diverse the art work, the greater the joy!